i’m so touch deprived that if someone would hug me rn i would probably cry…
i’m so much happier recently, and for some reason that made me tear up
2018 will be the year when i finally put my shit together or kms, there’s no in between
I’m celebrating Hanukkah all alone…I want to cry
if anyone still wonders
im ok, im alright now. had to get off tumblr and internet in general to get my life back together. i have a service dog now, good therapist and support i need.
i’ll be posting again soon
i’ts good to be back
i am such a loser at everything, why do i even try….
Please read
It will be really hard for me to write this so please bear with me and my messy writing. The thing is. I am broke. Again. I am starving. Again.
My tablet and laptop broke so I can’t do commissions. My tablet was old, the working panel just stopped responding to pen. My laptop was also pretty old and videocard basically burnt out.
And to make things worse I recently found out that I have a cyst in my breast and I have no money to pay for my medical treatment. I always knew that I would have that eventually since my mom and grandma had it too but I didn’t know it would happen so soon.
I went to couple of banks to ask for a loan but was declined in all of them. I have money to pay for rent but that’s all I have.
I am tired and I have no strength to fight this anymore. All I want is to just go to sleep and never wake up.
I don’t have PayPal and can’t make a gofundme page since both of those services don’t work in my country. The PayPal I used before belonged to the friend of mine and now she use it for her own needs. As for gofundme, well it doesn’t work in Ukraine.
I will appreciate any help, every like and reblog, every word of support. But to be completely honest with you…I don’t think I have any strength to fight this anymore.
Thank you for reading this. Thank you and I’m sorry.
oh btw if you ever somehow find out my birth name pls dont ever call me by it. it brings me the biggest pain and war flashbacks. thnx.
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