old follower of yours here. Toma, Misa, baby, listen to me, for the last 5 years i saw you been through so much shit and remember every sad post and my heart was breaking every time. but you know what else happened every time? you picking yourself together piece by piece, punching whatever troubling you in the guts and getting stronger every damn time. you can do it again, and again, AND AGAIN! you're not alone. and never was. i love you, please stay strong, your fan from Russia. Держись, няш.