so i am very very sick, and very depressed, i didnt finish tessellate update abd hate myself for it, i have commissions to finish and i cant even hold a pen straight, i have to take shots every couple hours but i have no one that can help me with it…

i am so lonely, everything hurts, and it feels like my mental health is dying with my body

i am a sobbing mess, i am so alone and i want to scream but have no strength to do it

i just feel completely broken and yes, sorry for myself…and hate myself for it as well…i’m supposed to be strong, to handle every shit that is thrown at me but i cant do it anymore

i’m such a huge disappointment, to my parents who dont care if i’m alive or not…and to myself…

i’m sorry…all of this doesnt make sense but i had to put all of this somewhere..