i’m feeling lonely af, even tho i have friends. well most of them are online friends and live like million miles away and those few irl friends that i have rarely talk to me. i had much more but being with them brought me more pain then happiness and it wasnt their fault so i just stopped talking with them without any explanation (not like they cared cuz no one of them had tried to talk to me either). that was my choice but i sometimes regret it. and here i am feeling lonely as ever writing this.